October 12, 2009
Dear Diary,
I dunno what to do anymore, I thought that after me having my beautiful baby girl things would change between me and Erik. I can't believe I actually believed that he was giong to change- that he was going to get back wit me and try to form a family wit Cynthia and me. How could I be so ignorant? How could I fall for his lies again. This is the last time I am going to help him. After that I am gone for good....I can't take this anymore. I've been wit him thru everythin and this is how he repays me...by cheating on me? I was there when his brother died...I was there when his best friend Rene died. When he almost got expelled from school after his dum self decided to go after Marco thinkin that he was responsilbe for the death of his boy...who was there to defend him...ME!
My mom has told me over and over again que I need to forget bout him...that's he's not worth it...she reminds of how happy I used to be before I met him. I was so smart and had dreams of going to college and then I met him... he completely ruined my life. The thing though, is that I know he is not good for me, but I cannot help it. Every time he finds himself in trouble I'm there. I was there to beg the superintendent to let him keep going to school. I know Erik is smart...he just got caught up in a world full of anger and revenge. After the death of his brother, his only concern is to avenge his death. When our boy Rene left us too, things became worse. For a while when Cythia was born he had started to change. He was so happy to see her and hold her and hug her. I remember the day she was born; he was there with me the whole time. Now I don't know what to think anymore...there are times when I feel like we will make it through and form a family...then there are times when the revengeful and hateful Erik comes out again. He gets mad and expects me to be there supporting hid violent behavior. If I don't he doesn't think twice before running to Monica's arms. Yes he is doing much better now...he is going to school and is in a good path to graduating but I just don't know if I am able to take this anymore. I don't know if I can take another lie or fake promise from him. He keeps saying he is going to leave the gang and that he will never cheat on me again but I don't know if I should believe him anymore.
Dear Diary,
I dunno what to do anymore, I thought that after me having my beautiful baby girl things would change between me and Erik. I can't believe I actually believed that he was giong to change- that he was going to get back wit me and try to form a family wit Cynthia and me. How could I be so ignorant? How could I fall for his lies again. This is the last time I am going to help him. After that I am gone for good....I can't take this anymore. I've been wit him thru everythin and this is how he repays me...by cheating on me? I was there when his brother died...I was there when his best friend Rene died. When he almost got expelled from school after his dum self decided to go after Marco thinkin that he was responsilbe for the death of his boy...who was there to defend him...ME!
My mom has told me over and over again que I need to forget bout him...that's he's not worth it...she reminds of how happy I used to be before I met him. I was so smart and had dreams of going to college and then I met him... he completely ruined my life. The thing though, is that I know he is not good for me, but I cannot help it. Every time he finds himself in trouble I'm there. I was there to beg the superintendent to let him keep going to school. I know Erik is smart...he just got caught up in a world full of anger and revenge. After the death of his brother, his only concern is to avenge his death. When our boy Rene left us too, things became worse. For a while when Cythia was born he had started to change. He was so happy to see her and hold her and hug her. I remember the day she was born; he was there with me the whole time. Now I don't know what to think anymore...there are times when I feel like we will make it through and form a family...then there are times when the revengeful and hateful Erik comes out again. He gets mad and expects me to be there supporting hid violent behavior. If I don't he doesn't think twice before running to Monica's arms. Yes he is doing much better now...he is going to school and is in a good path to graduating but I just don't know if I am able to take this anymore. I don't know if I can take another lie or fake promise from him. He keeps saying he is going to leave the gang and that he will never cheat on me again but I don't know if I should believe him anymore.
February 10, 2010
Dear Diary,
I know I have not written to you in a really long time. However, it's for really good reasons. Erik has really changed. Things between me and him have really changed. He told me he has talked to his boy about quitting the gang to form a family with me and Cynthia. I know this is going to be hard on us. Marco and his gang will continue to bother us for a while, but Erik says he is saving up some money to get a decent place out of here where we can live together. I haven't told my mom yet for fear that she will take me away from Erik. I know that once she sees how much Erik has changed and how happy I am she won't oppose. Erik is working with Rene's dad as a mechanic at his auto shop. I just couldn't be happier right now. I just hope this is not too good to be true.
Word Count: 638 words
Dear Diary,
I know I have not written to you in a really long time. However, it's for really good reasons. Erik has really changed. Things between me and him have really changed. He told me he has talked to his boy about quitting the gang to form a family with me and Cynthia. I know this is going to be hard on us. Marco and his gang will continue to bother us for a while, but Erik says he is saving up some money to get a decent place out of here where we can live together. I haven't told my mom yet for fear that she will take me away from Erik. I know that once she sees how much Erik has changed and how happy I am she won't oppose. Erik is working with Rene's dad as a mechanic at his auto shop. I just couldn't be happier right now. I just hope this is not too good to be true.
Word Count: 638 words
